what do I appreciate about completing these appreciations? that I did it. that for a year, a leap year in fact! every day I came up with something I appreciated, looked up what I needed to, wrote my appreciation, edited and polished it, and posted it before midnight. (I think there was one exception, one day when midnight arrived before I thought to do all that.) I'm glad I did this exercise, because I had come to a failure to appreciate that had gone on too long. I hadn't appreciated, and certainly not "out loud", for too long. I basically had to retrain myself, and I did it publicly. and I did appreciate, many many things and ideas, like toy trains, and shooting a gun. has it made a difference in my life? yes. Lindy says I'm calmer, and that I accept her corrections more readily. or more nearly readily. I can't say - it isn't true - that I spontaneously appreciate now, and I haven't seen any evidence of my appreciating in my poems. I haven't seen them grow happier or more joyful. I'm not sure I'd want that. I don't trust happy poets, or joyful ones. I know there's a possibility that they've really gotten what the Buddha wanted for us, but I wonder if they are really that insensitive to all the suffering, and all the evil around us. but that's another story. or maybe not. an idea just amused me: I may not trust those poets, but I appreciate them. they do a task I cannot. I'm a serious poet. boy, am I a serious poet! so I appreciate them bringing to poetry what I cannot or will not. <bow> now isn't that funny? that in my appreciation of completing 366 appreciations, I learned that I appreciated some people that I hadn't yet learned I did?